30 days of self-love: vision

I love this vision board. I’ve made them many times throughout my life, and here in this moment at 37 years old, I feel that I’m as clear as I have ever been. Which is funny, because I have been much more “sure” at other times in my life of what I’m meant to be doing. I know now that sureness was actually hiding. I know now that back then, I was actually doing what I was meant to be doing, but not in the way that I that I understood it back then. I was meant to do everything exactly the way I did it, because that was the only way I could be exactly where I am tonight.

Making this vision board was an act of self-love. And hanging it up after is a reminder that it’s the choices I make every day where I am reminded if I am moving in the world with the spark of my soul’s calling alive in me. I used to live my life like a vision board – I think, I analyze, I figure out my dream job, my dream place to live, my dream partner, make a plan and put it all down on a piece of paper, and I hold so tightly onto it that there isn’t space for anything else to happen. That’s how I kept control.

I look at my vision board and I see space now. I see my gifts, what lights me up, where I find flow, my healing, sharing, community, family. I see room for evolution. I see possibility. A world of trauma transmuted, where we all have capacity to be alchemists of our experience.

I will lovingly give myself the gift of space, and keep the reminder. Self-love is also in the follow-through.