30 days of self-love: dance for my life
I had a really difficult day today. Couldn’t get out of my shit. I was avoiding the best medicine I know, the medicine I know I hold right inside me.
Usually I love to dance, except when I most need to. Today, I forced myself. I danced to one song, two songs, and I couldn’t get connected. I kept trying. Three songs, four, and I started to feel something. I took myself up, down, and through. Eyes closed, eyes open, graceful and graceless, the pressure moving from my chest to my neck to my face to finally getting to a sobbing release.
It’s so important for me to move my body when I get stuck like I did today. Move my body wildly, shake everything as hard as I can, sing and hum and feel the vibrations on my chest with both my hands, swing my legs and point my toes, swirl around the room and scream out my anger.
This is what self-love looks like when I least want it. When my body is protecting me by disconnecting and shutting down because my brain is telling me, “Shut down, you don’t deserve love, you deserve to feel like this.” Yes, it’s important to accept, embrace and love feelings that come. And also, it’s important to allow our bodies opportunities to feel and move through.
Today’s playlist:
- When My Lights Burn Out – Prinze George
- Always Home – Skysia
- Where Does My Heart Beat Now – Celine Dion
- Child of the Universe – Sierra Marin
- Elastic Heart – Sia
- I’m All I Need (sing and feel the vibrations on the chest) -Beautiful Chorus
- Deep Connection – Rob Riccardo & Slow Traverse
- Smoke – Joy Olakodun
- Beautiful Day – U2
Dance for your life! Love you.
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